YAAAYY :D!!!!! read on...and on.....an onnnnnnn :o/ wow.

hello there...Just put my blog posts in sequential order for ya....

BOY i wish i was in bed right now....so today was day 10 (the day my hair could start falling out-and....actually....the top of my head feels a little funny...im thinkin its a sunburn ;o)) hahaa. yea. definitely a sunburn.  still NO sign of any symptoms at all...u know the most CRAZY thing???!!! i actually feel like this radiation is helping me. (!!) seriously. i kiiiiiiiiiinda feel "guilty" that i feel soooo great (and energizer-bunny like) wow i have so much i wanna write about right now... :O((( but my back hurts SOOOOOOOOOOOO bad and i just want to lay down :O((((( UGH.  

so i've had THE dryest mouth ever lately too. just cant seem to drink enough water (however, it seems as tho the NW has mistaken itself for the desert in recent days)...anyway-the mouth is rather annoying (esp having to pee every 15min.(!)... i guess one of the "hardest" things has been getting up--ie: out of a chair/bed/field/sidewalk...hahaaa)  seriously...i think i should invest in a camelpack thingy.........waterbottle....=empty :O(((( grrrrrrr. oh yea-today is the day it feels like ive been hangin upside down esp when i bend over even a little bit...tomorrows "Dr Day" where we take vitals etc n meet w some of my team...they might say it could b my brain swelling...? whatever. im not worried about it :O))

hahaaa--i love the fact that yesterday i consumed no less than SIXTY grams of fat (most in the form of haagen daz...ben and jerrys...strawberry shortcake popsickle :O)) whole milk/chocolate milk...MY PRECIOUS GRANDPA AL'S A-mazing potato salad... :D!!! <3 <3 <3

btw-i need to adjust this playlist too....dont want it to be depressing (at all) bc--IM NOT DEPRESSED :D!!! hahaaa <3

how i WISH i had time/motivation to write about the most amazingest weekend ive had EVER (that i can remember anyway....yea definitely by FAR the best. for a thousand reasons!!! :D!!! see my facebook for a glimpse :O)) oh how i wish u could have laughed as much as i did...!! and i hope u do! :D!! <3

hey-U SHOULD CHECK OUT Dori's Blog (In picture above) !!! (shes 26 and just had a double mastectomy a few wks after she found out (of nowhere) that she has breast cancer :O(((((( and BOY do i love this girl.....shes amazing...AND she starts some ugly ugly chemo in like a wk or somethin...(Oh my...u HAVE to read her blog- ie: most recent (just now read it)...in her words: cancer picked (thought it said "pickled" hahaa :O)) the wrong bitch :D!!! i second that!!!! BAHAHAAAA!!! this is SOOO true...!! i swear it has made me a better person.  True story.  Im pretty positive "the radiation is helping me think better".  well, no one told me that was a potential side effect--so it must be SOME"thing" else.  anyone out there believe in God??...yes, a loaded question....which has most definitely brought much inner turmoil (and 'outer' at many times) in my life....ie: is there really a "God"?? if so, what does it (really) look like to believe in Him?  Who is He?? cause im pretty sure all the amazingness in the world...all the most precise and specific order of things that exists (ie: THE ANIMAL KINGDOM!!! THE HUMAN BODY!!! THE UNIVERSE!!!)  HOW could it all come from nothing? or create itself..? where would "it" have come from??? how could "something" come from nothing?? not interested in arguing or anything...just writing :O)) ANYWAY. must. get. WATER!!! hahaa--waters pretty amazing too!! AND THE OCEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously. WOW.

ok anyway.

met one of the most beautiful souls i've ever met today after my apt.  (am i allowed to say his name??) hmmm...we will just call him "Anthony"....U SHOULD MEET HIM!! anthony is 6' 7'', 24 yrs old  (was given a full ride basketball scholarship in Florida 6yrs ago, also graduated HS w a 3.8) however, he currently lives in seattle & goes to UW!!  He is studying marketing/architecture.  (there is a point to all my details...) Anthony is HILARIOUS, very intelligent, THOUGHTFUL, suuuupper laid back, loves jolly ranchers and has a big container of such things in his thoughtfully decorated home, he actually LISTENS when u/ppl talk to him....however, one of the most fascinating (and dominating) aspects of his character is his unshakable devotion to God....what makes this so remarkable u ask?? maybe the fact that hours bf he was to leave to begin his freshman year in FL, he broke his neck while playing a game at a conference. [speechless] did u know that he spent a solid TWENTY ONE+ MONTHS in the hospital??!!!!!???? thank GOD for mothers/fathers/and friends.....!!!! :o(((( i just had to share that story real quick. btw-they basically said he would never be able to move his limbs...well-they were wrong. and Anthonys gonna walk again. i know it!! <3


much love goes out to my friends (and most AMAZING mom) for making this the best 4 days in a row EVER (in the US anyway ;o)) Mom-for who u are and all u do (and all u put up w from ur "snappy" daughter ;o)) Dad-for sacrificing all u have for the sake of ur family...for moving down to AZ to provide for us (ie: me n mom-hahaaa :O)) You're the best...SOOOO wise, sweet, integrous-is that a word?,  clean ;o)), super duper smart and funny, AND good looking!!! i miss u tho.... :O((( ....to those whose company i enjoyed and treasured immensely: my girl-Heather, my fellow adventure-seeking, music-loving, people-caring,...friend Josh, Allen-hands down, the most observant (yet humble), informative, attentive, giving 22year old i have ever met!, and my new friends Zach and Ben who live in the greatest warehouse ever (yes, a warehouse-renovated that is) w some other awesome ppl.  Zach was so thoughtful to bring his guitar and fresh produce n such :O))

GOSH...bein on the computer makes my eyes (n HEAD) hurt. GRRR...i have SOOO much i need to do!!...like WRITING BACK CHANNEL 4 AND 13 regarding the story they want to do on me/humanitarianism etc.  CANT WAIT!!! just hope my "heart"/vision is represented honestly/accurately and all (and that i dont say something stupid/not make sense/talk too much :o/ i can get a little excited ;o))...oh how i LOVE bringing awareness to people/society.  (ie: regarding cancer/radiation/poverty/LOVE......... yay yay yay) and that is why im SOOOOO excited :D!!! seriously...i dont even watch the news cause its so TERRIBLE the things ppl go thru and the way humans behave towards eachother...its just too much to watch for me....would rather go out and experience it w them...afterall, LOVE IS ALL U NEED! (seriously this is so true) well, on that note, i think im done on here for the night :O)) more pics to come...or see fb <3 <3 <3